Can you hear me now?

So... I've been praying a lot lately. I guess normal Christians pray all the time, but I kind of go through phases. Not that I don't pray, just that I don't pray as often. But I've been noticing some really funny things, some downright unnecessary things, and some things that are earnest and bold and way too scary to ever say to the God of the universe.... Here are some of the things that have been going through my mind lately.

(when I was running) God, please let it stop pouring, my shoes are soaked and I don't want to have to talk about chafing again with Nate.
(35 minutes later) God, please let it rain, let it pour! It is soooo hot.... Or let someone soak us with a hose.

(I've been sneezing a lot lately) Dear God, please don't let snot go flying.

(When I am nannying) Lord, thank you for two year olds. Please help nannykid to take a good nap.

(When I think of Haley) God, I know you're sorry too. But really?

(When graduation comes to mind) Oh dear God, please don't let me fail psych. please don't let me trip.

(When after graduation comes to mind) Father, tell me something. And help us not to have to live with my parents.

(When I look at my brokenness) Jesus, I am so nothing without you. I wish I'd let you win more.

(When I think of my wedding) Please PLEASE don't let me trip. Don't let me ugly cry, and don't let my face show the sheer terror and anxiety I feel when all eyes are on me.

(When I think of my marriage) God, I am so unworthy of a guy like Nate. Don't let me forget. Thanks for him.


It's an emotional week to say the least.